God damn summer, you’re ruining my life.
It occurred to me today that I have not written here in some time and well, maybe that I should do my fuckin’ job and post something.
So I have one week left of my freshman year in the great college adventure. Hell yes, right? Wrong. I’m not ready to leave in the least. Everyone around me is packing up their things and babbling about how they can’t wait to go home. Apparently I’m a freak of nature because I’m dragging my feet and wishing it was next fall already. I think I have issues with letting go of people and places. College has been the greatest time of my entire life. Now I understand why some people never want to leave college. The people I know here are my entire life. I’m at a point right now where it feels like leaving these people will be the death of me. I thought high school was going to leave me with the people I’d always remember but they’ve been thrown through a window by college relationships.
College gave me my new best friend, Trista. The old one and I cut the apron strings and it’s for the better. Trista’s going home for the summer. I’m not. I should mention that. Whereas many of the people are going to disappear for the next few months, the place remains. I’m moving into an apartment on campus with Danielle. Lucky for me, some of my boys will still be staying around the fraternity. I could play frat house sleepover too if it weren’t for the housing corp. Girls aren’t allowed to live there this summer. Weak. I’m not looking forward to sleeping in an empty apartment alone when Danielle is sleeping next door at her boyfriend’s apartment. I convince myself that I hear noises when I’m alone. Garret will probably have to come sleep over until I get used to it. That’s what friends are for.
People are graduating. Some are leaving. I’m never going to see some of them again and that sucks. I’m far too attached to these people for my own good. I never really thought about anyone leaving even though I obviously knew that they would have to some day. I guess it’s just nice to think they’ll be there until the day I graduate. Bummer…
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It’s only when college ends that you realise you miss everything so much.
Regular classes only ended a week ago for me, but I’m already missing the mid-week society meetings…
Oh well, at least next year (if I make it into next year), there’s going to be a brand new Airsoft Society for me to take part in
I hear you. I’m moving to CF in four days and a few people are either going home or going to exotic countries for study/missions work. One of my new friends (Facebook says we’re in a relationship, but it’s not true in the least) is going to be in Des Moines doing an art camp with kids and I’m not terribly happy with that. Another is moving to Colorado to counsel at a church camp of some sort.
For the most part; however, most of my friends just have to go home for a couple of weeks until their lease starts (some people don’t have their leases start until late May whereas ours starts much earlier).
PS Hayley, has Bowers introduced you to Sam [from high school] yet?
Nope, he def. hasn’t.